putting it all in perspective

Twenty years ago I was not a happy chappy. But I should have been - it was Christmas and our family was grilling in the backyard of our Western Sydney home. Furthermore, I had just received the most awesome gift a boy my age could ask for - a Donatello TMNT figurine. Being a nerd, he was of course my favorite, but he was not happy at all - the mighty Ninja Turtle's staff had dropped into the fire. And as this Soundgarden music video depicts (in a somewhat creepy manner), fire is the enemy of all plastic toys: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3mbBbFH9fAg. What was Donatello without his staff? Probably about the same as his Renaissance namesake would have been without his sculpting tools: less awesome. MUCH less awesome.

It's funny how we mourn over inanimate objects the same as we might mourn over more, well, important losses. I've since become less prone to this strange depression but part of me is a little deluded and still assigns 'life' to mere objects. Seriously though, it's just stuff - get over it, David! Only in the past few years have I realized how overrated materialism is. Yoga has definitely helped. The asanas are my toys and the mat my playground. And I don't think I'll ever run out of toys given that the great yogi Tirumalai Krishnamacharya witnessed Ramamohan Brahmachary perform 7000 distinct poses.

So this Black Friday ask yourself: do you really need that snazzy new smartphone with the built-in can opener and all the other gizmos?

Nurturing our Nature

An old friend of mine, one of the sweetest human beings on this earth, had just gone through a divorce. Life was unfair, I told myself. If anyone deserved to be happy it was most certainly her but she was most certainly not happy. Left with a heavy heart, she was also left with her ex-husbands surname. And she kept it - not because it was inconvenient to change back to her maiden name, but because she acknowledged her marriage had been a huge part of her life. It had contributed to who she was - an idea that I pondered briefly on. But the thought escaped my mind, until it once again manifested itself this January, while reading a book (quite the mathematician as a child, I never had a penchant for reading - this had been one of only a handful of novels I had read). I was poring over "A Long Way Down" by Nick Hornby, now my favorite book. The four protagonists meet for the first time on top of a building infamously linked to many recent suicides. While some had mulled over the idea more than others, each had decided to leap to their deaths. That is, until they met each other and began, forlorn of hope, to share their hatred of the world and their thoughts of hopelessness and regret. How had it all come to this? A line that sticks with me was uttered by JJ, an American man whose band had recently broken up. On top of this, he had just been dumped by his girlfriend and, on a whim, had decided that recent events were sufficient grounds to end it all. When telling her story to the other three she noted that "we are what's happened to us". While not a phrase that appeared deep or required me to get my dictionary out, this really made me think about how I've become who I am. Just like yoga poses each leave an impression - a samskara - on the body, our experiences leave indelible marks on our souls. Thus, while Nature may play a large role in who we are (e.g. my father is European and my mother Asian - I look somewhat like both of them), what we go through really makes us. Blessed with the most awesome of parents, my brother and I are lucky peeps. Not being one to express himself much (maybe it's a Swiss thing), one day my father nevertheless was talking to me about my brother and I and how we were very different. He said he was proud of us both. This made me excited as I had never once heard him use "proud" and "David" in the same sentence. He also noted how my brother, a handsome young man, lived vivaciously in the moment: partying, dating, motorbiking and skydiving his way to happiness. I, according to dad, was the quiet one who would live for the future. Whether it was studying for an exam or saving money (for God knows what), I would be 100% prepared. In the event of an emergency I would not only have a piggy bank full of cash under my bed but also the long division skills necessary to figure out how many days we could survive for (c.f. "Life of Pi" by Yann Martel, my second favorite book). Disaster never did strike though, but what eventually did strike me was how right my dad was. So enough about the past. And the future, well that's too difficult to predict. Just ask Patanjali, whose teachings were compiled more than two thousand years ago into the aphorisms present in the Yoga Sutras, the bases of classical yoga. If reading them seems like a challenge for your patience then simply take the first two words "atha yoga" (yoga is now) as your mantra. Be here and be now. I never have lived in the moment but I really want to see what I can do to change that. Maybe this Patanjali guy was onto something :)

N.B. The books "A Long Way Down" and "Life of Pi" will soon become movies. YAY!!!

Open your mind

I was commuting home from Sydney University one afternoon and having stepped off the train, I was greeted by glorious sunshine. On the walk home I was minding my own business as a lanky Anglo-Saxon teenage boy caught up to me, greeting me in the local vernacular: "how are you doin', mate?" Briefly surprised - I hadn't noticed him behind me - I smiled and replied "not too bad man, how 'bout you?" Five years after this little meeting, I still recall his next nine words: "Wow - I didn't know your kind could speak English!" This  guy - I kid you not - was absolutely stunned. So too was I, as you would expect. After convincing him that "my kind" could in fact have some command of the English language I mentioned something about never judging a book by its cover, to which he nodded and heartily agreed. Shortly thereafter, I took a left turn at an intersection as he continued along the road. We had parted ways but I could not for the life of me part with his comments, which reverberated in my head for quite some time. I have little doubt that he was a nice and friendly kid - but heck we're living in the twenty-first century in a first world country known for its cosmopolitan and multicultural vibes. Moreover, the suburb in which I lived was populated with thousands of Korean and Chinese immigrants. None of these, according to this kid, were capable of speaking English. My black hair, narrow brown eyes and darker complexion - characteristics of "my kind" - apparently did not allow me to communicate in the official language of my country. I guess it's fair to say that if you 'assume' things like that you really do make an 'ass' out of 'u' and 'me'.

Chickens

Some weeks ago I was faced with a dilemma. Having just returned from yoga, I noticed that one of my housemates three chickens was sitting on the garden gate, poised to escape into the wild open frontiers of Urbana. OK, maybe I exaggerate: it wasn't so much poised to escape but was rather comfortably sitting on the wooden gate. And maybe Urbana isn't the wildly dangerous place I make it out to be (I think it's pretty safe for a chicken - lots of vegetarians here!). But it certainly could have done a runner anytime it so desired. I had no idea what to do: try to shoo it back inside? throw some feed pellets inside to lure it back? I chose option three - I didn't do anything. I figured it couldn't have hated its little environment too much if it was still there. So I went out for a bit and returned at ten that evening. And there she was, still perched on the fence, unmoved. I approached it, waving my arms uncontrollably trying to scare it back inside. That had absolutely no effect on her. What would I tell my housemate if it escaped? The chicken and I eventually called a truce and I got a little closer to it. Surely it'll fly back in. No such luck. I ended up standing there petting the cute little clucker for what seemed like half an hour. The ducks (oh yeah, we have ducks too! they get along with the chickens...most of the time at least) just looked on, confused expressions on their faces. Let me tell you this chicken was REALLY chillaxing! It didn't seem fazed at all. This has led me to believe that maybe chickens do yoga when humans aren't watching. I wouldn't be surprised, although I don't know if any chicken pose exists (there is, of course, crow pose, crane pose, peacock pose, eagle pose, swan pose, heron pose, duck pose, etc.). Eventually, I did throw some food into the garden and the chicken went back. But not before it made my day by hanging out with me for a bit :) Man I love chickens!

phat rhymes

One evening some weeks ago I was riding home from a party. The sky being dark, my way home was lit only by the odd streetlight. Whistling as I rode, I was nearing my destination and looking forward to a hot shower, especially given the briskness of the air that night. To my surprise, a man on the sidewalk began singing along to my whistled tune (U2's "With or Without You"), and he accompanied me for a few bars before I shouted my approval. A week later as I was exiting my yoga studio I heard a young woman singing as she rode by. I got on my bike and caught up to her and told her how happy it makes me to hear people just expressing themselves. These aren't isolated cases - I can't remember the number of times I walk by people humming a tune and I just can't help but join in for a measure or two.

I once heard that we whistle less now than we did fifty years ago and that it may have something to do with us being less happy now then we were last century. I hope this isn't the case - because from what I experience humankind is still very much alive :)

Buses and trains

A while back I estimated that I had spent about half a year of my life riding a train or bus. Whether this was heading off to high school or college or going out that's half a year in some (typically ridiculously overcrowded) piece of metal. There's something about public transport. And it's not just the awesome fact that it's green. It's just so PUBLIC! You have random people sitting next to you falling asleep on your shoulder. You have buskers laying down some phat beats (the Ukelele Lady in Sydney was my favorite).

We share these spaces with people we might not have anything in common with. For me, this was the most interesting aspect as my life at the time seemed boring - surely the days in the lives of these people were filled with more to write home about. When commuting to the lab, dressed in my daggy clothes, I wondered what all those guys in their suits did during the day. I was also curious when confronted with an emaciated and intoxicated thirty year old woman one day. Her ears were bleeding, having botched an attempt to pierce her ears. Earrings in hand, she asked me if I could help her put them on for her. I thought about it for a while (when I tell people of this story they are surprised that the thought of helping her even crossed my mind) but eventually declined in as polite a way as I could.

A year or so later I found myself riding a train home sometime after midnight, having been socializing with some friends from grad school that evening (a pretty rare event for me, being a rather quiet soul). My section of the carriage was populated with precisely two people: myself and a man sitting some five rows in front of me. Buried in a novel (from memory it was Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets), I was startled when the man was standing right next to me, requesting that he use my cellphone to make an urgent call. I told the man no, and that he could get off at the next stop and use the payphone. He asked again. Same answer. After a further request I caved and handed my phone to the man, who promptly sat down beside me. He dialed a number, but didn't seem at all anxious as one might be in an urgent situation. Talking in some African language, he began a seemingly friendly conversation, punctuated with fits of laughter. I didn't need a babelfish in my ear to tell that it seemed like he just wanted to chat with an old friend. Some emergency, huh? I glanced at him but he was too absorbed in his conversation to acknowledge my existence. Some minutes later I asked him if he could wrap it up - and he held his hand out and said he'd only be a couple minutes more. After what seemed like an eternity I asked him again and he hung up and pressed a few buttons. I alighted a couple stops later, staggered home, and collapsed in my bed. Two weeks later I got my phone bill. Everything was normal except for a 20 min call to Sierra Leone. Oh, and he'd also deleted the call record. Jerk. As an epilogue, after a chemistry departmental party a month later, I rode the train home but was apparently tired enough to miss my stop. Getting off at Hornsby, I looked for a train in the opposite direction but it was so late that only buses were running. So I lined up at the bus stop. After some minutes a man  tapped me on the back and asked if I could lend him my phone for an emergency call. I turn around and there he was. And you can guess my answer to his question.

Yoga

Wow...long time no post. To be honest, not much has happened to me of late...or at least nothing that I deemed worthy of a blog post. Because only really important and meaningful stuff is allowed on blogs, right?

I once heard David Swenson, yogi extraordinaire, talk of his youth in Texas. As a teen his asana practice was already very advanced and he took it upon himself to teach fellow yogis (many of whom were much older than him) how to turn their bodies into pretzels. He did this in a local park and was soon confronted with none other than the police, sirens blaring and officers shouting at him to cease his practice. Apparently it appeared as if he were leading some type of cult, something the conservative local cops were not keen on. Clearly, it seemed, arranging your body into something resembling a tree (vrksasana) would result in an apocalypse. Come to think of it, it was probably scorpion pose (vrishchikasana) or warrior II (virabhadrasana II) that set the alarm bells off. They look a lot more badass. Seriously, get over it - yoga is not some kinda of black art. There is no double, double toil and trouble (OK, there might be a bit of toiling - asanas can be hard work!). In his commentary on the Yoga Sutras of Patanjali, Swami Satchidananda clearly states that yoga cannot change any external objects or other people. Duh...that would be impossible. There are, after all, laws of physics. So if yoga can't change things then what's the point? Turns out it affects  the way we see others - we appreciate them for their true selves, as our mind is free of mental modifications (i.e. distorted ideas, false assumptions, old habits, etc.). If yoga cannot alter the outside world then surely it can alter us, right? In fact, it turns out that yoga can't even really create or destroy anything inside even the yogi! In Stephen Mitchell's commentary to the Bhagavad Gita he says that this millenia-old tale (and yoga in general) "has nothing to teach. Everything essential that it points to - what we call wisdom or radiance or peace - is already present within us." So yoga is NOT some kind of witchcraft - we yogis cannot conjure something out of nothing. Satchidananda points out that "all knowledge is within you and you need not get it from outside." Basically, this means that we've all already got all this awesomeness within us. We just need yoga to unlock this potential. This also goes for the physical (asana) aspect. I've seen unfit novice yogis surprise themselves by getting into crow pose (bakasana) in their first class. For a long time I thought I never in my life would be able to perform revolved triangle (parivrtta trikonanasana). But, thanks to my trainer Heather, I got there! Satchidananda  gives the analogy that when we reflect on ourselves it's like seeing our inner self in a mirror. If our mind is unfocussed the mirror is dirty and we cannot see ourselves for who were are. When we meditate we clean the metaphorical mirror and see our true radiant selves. And when we leave our mats we see our friends for who they are and end up being happier, nicer people :)

So I'm kinda psyched about my yoga right now. Because of yoga I'm not half as shy as I was three years ago and I feel like this is really going to help me live my life and stop me being a lifelong wallflower. The practice has given me so much confidence and I'm really excited to show others how to unlock their true potential. Anyway, so I'm finally leaving the Midwest (albeit for less than a week!) for a vacation so maybe I'll have more interesting (and less heavy!) stuff to write about then :)